I have to go, my mother does not trust me on the computer and I am very sad.....you don't have to comment....I just am really sad. I enjoyed being on here.
Basically I said that on facebook that someone should give me a gun just so I could kill myself....cos I don't see the point in living....
"What triggered this? You were fine last night." Mom said, a dissapointed expression on her face.
"The past." I said, fear trembling in my voice as a tear rolled down my cheek. Recently I had been thinking of what I have done in the past and yet I wondered why people didn't like me. I want friends, but I am focused on my school work and I do pay attention...most of what I learn I forget.
I don't remember the whole conversation. Basically I'm scared and I don't know what to do...now I have to pay the price. I'm deleting that journal entry because it's pointless and irrelivent. My mom just loves me and wants to help.
Bye Joanna: I'll miss u. Even though I've let you down. I am your friend, right? You haven't complained one bit as much as I did and I'm proud of you.
Bye Taylor, you've been an awesome friend and your art is awesome in my eyes. I hope you continue doing what you're doing. You're going to be a hit! :joy:
Bye SnoogieDoodle27: I don't know you much but you are nice and thoughtful and I will miss talking to you.
Bye Jamie: I just got to know you recently and I love you! Not like that but you are a true friend and you have a gift for art and should follow your dream of becoming an animator...you'd be awesome at it.
and goodbye Clawfoot: I hope you feel better and happier. I will be on sometimes to check up on you all and see how you're doing...but this needs to happen. God is sending me a message. I need to get some help and figure out these problems on my own. I know what I need to do and why I need to do it.